Honesty not sure I would have made it in your shoes. Just BEING at the gynecologist is hard for me, connected to childhood trauma. Once, I got so panicked during a pap smear (for whatever reason, for me, they really hurt) that my gynecologist briefly thought she was going to have to call 911.
Of course, now my gynecologist suspects that I have interstial cystitis, so I have an appointment with a specialist in two weeks. I've heard about the test they do to sort of "hard confirm" that, and I'm going to have to be clear - either knock me out or this ain't happening. Because my body simply will not allow it, not without having a panic attack meltdown.
